I believe that you have a one-of-a-kind blend of patterns, stories, temperament and strengths. This makes you, YOU. Despite any brain differences you may have (depression, bipolar disorder, ADD, anxiety, autism, or something else), your uniqueness is celebrated here. You belong. Your gifts are amplified. You matter. You are loved.
You have hidden abilities that need to be unearthed. My fundamental belief is that every single person has magnificence in them. Hidden genius simply needs to be discovered. I ask the difficult questions so that you can know yourself and use that understanding to reach your fullest potential.
Knowing yourself and why you do what you do changes everything.
I ask “why” because my brain differences have naturally led me to ask questions about who I am and why I behave the way I do.
My reactions and triggers are amplified because of the sensitivity that comes with having a mental illness. But I know that the same things that give me challenges are the ones that hold my greatest strengths.
I wanted to know myself so that I could use my strengths to mitigate my weaknesses and live the life I know I deserve.
I ask the difficult questions:
- Why am I so impulsive?
- Why am I triggered?
- Why am I so sensitive?
- Why are my relationships volatile?
- Why is my empathy so extreme?
- Why do I love so easily?
- Why do I attract abusive partners?
The answers I have found, and continue to find, are solutions to questions you may be asking. My curiosity combines with my creativity and I love putting it all together into pockets of powerful information.
I do the hard work, the research, the endless hours of reading and diving deep into human behaviour. It’s led me to my Masters in Psychology, but more importantly, to a way of helping you get to know yourself. You will find that a lot of my work and healing involves reading books, and most importantly writing.
Writing saved my life.
From when I was a young child I battled with anxiety and depression, and in my early thirties was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. With a very strong interest in not only my own mental illness, but also a strong desire to help others with the same struggles, I spent my life studying psychology, counselling and therapeutic techniques. Interestingly, I did this while building a career in publishing. So my world has always been filled with books, writing, and a whole lot of words.
Because here’s the thing: Until very recently I was unable to manage my illness. I stood on the blade between life and death numerous times. I did everything I was supposed to, including traditional therapy and strict medication (both of which I still consider essential). But I still wasn’t OK.
One night in March 2015 I found myself face to face with death. Closer than I had ever been before. But, instead of drowning, I rose with more fight than ever. That significant date is literally tattooed on my body now because it was the day I decided to live, no matter what. I started writing every day. I had always kept a journal, but now I started writing about my feelings and my world with intention – to heal.
A few months later I started this blog and wrote about my experiences and what I was learning. I changed the crowd I used to hang out with and chose to rub shoulders with people that “got me” instead. I found my tribe in a group of writers. I have seen my heart change shape as I write and it’s a gift I want to give to others. The more I learnt about myself through my journals, the more questions I started to ask, and the more this blog evolved.
I’ve gathered my books and picked up my pen, and this work – which I believe is my life’s work and answer to the biggest WHY – why I am here; is the result. I share my own struggles transparently, and I hope that my story and answers will help you too.